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Marloes van der Valk Holland, 4 March,1999

I am a dutch girl of 17 years old. I have read this story and the reactions from other readers. And I am schocked. I have never realized how serious this bomb was.
We learn very much about the world war II, but always from the other side. Our country has been ruled by the Germans and that is story we learn. And because of this, we forget that there was an other side in this war, on whitch also a lot of innocent people were.
I think therefore that this story must be told, because it gives us a chance to realize that this war was for everybody a very bad thing.
In our history classes the A-bombs are not even discussed. And in my history book there is only one sentence on the entire subject. I don't know what causes this, but I feel that this must change.
I have discussed the subject with my teatcher and she agrees with me.
We are going to try and change this fact. Because this may never happen again. And I think we have to tell everybody wath happend. These are all long term plans. Before I can even teatch history, I still have 6 years of school, but as soon as I can I will tell the story about what happend at the end off world war II.
For now we will discuss your story during one of our history classes, hoping that we can tell something about this and hoping we can make everybody understand that this should never happen again. I know it is a small start, but we have got to start someware. And maybe one day there will be a safer world for everybody.

Marloes van der Valk (Holland)

Paul Standley Australia, 16 March,1999

It is rare to come across a site that brings emotion to the fore, but Mr Terao's memoirs will have tears streaming from my eyes...

I have been a student of nuclear science for some time; I know a great deal of the nature of the atom, and what it can be used read a site such as this one puts such a solemn turn on what I do. I dont know what to say, except offer a feeble apolody to all those that have suffered at the hands of science's inventions, turned to war.

More memoirs like this should be available, and they should be made available outside Japan. Being the only country that has had victims that have survived, their story is needed to fend off any future repitition of this sad event.

I know this message is probably useless, with mr Terao having already passed on, but I could not go by without comment...I cry for all of us now, not just myself.

Paul Standley

Brian Boozer U.S.A., 12 May,1999

I have read the letters from the victims on your web site. I wish that everyone has a chance to read these letters before making a judgement on the use of such weapons.

What scares myself and other today is the continual spread of countries incorporating the development of nuclear arms. Some think peace will be enivitable if all countries have these bombs, but I think we are doomed for destruction. It is in our nature to destroy as human beings.

I know I could never use such weapons, yet my country did. I would give my life before destroy someone elses with such a weapon. I wish we could forsee the great mistakes we eventually make. Peace,

Brian Boozer

Rod Parr Australia, 25 June,1999

My name is Rod Parr and I live in Adelaide, Australia. After reading the story of Mr. Terao I was moved to write to you.

I am writing a book about survivors of war, my research for this work has been extensive - over 7 years to-date. I have contacted war affected people world-wide inviting them to reveal how their experience of war changed or influenced their lives.

It is a fact that a nation's memories are drawn to those who died in service, for them the struggle is over - but for many veterans and casualties of war the struggle for living is sometimes harder, the inner conflict continues - so many words still remain unspoken . . . Books which reveal human emotions in the aftermath of war are scarce, few writers pursue the destruction that did not end in a peace treaty, but human lives and, particularly human minds, are subtly altered by war and violence - the war doesn't stop when the guns cease firing.

Although so many families are hurting, little material about their grieving is to be found in archives or at monuments dedicated to our war dead. "Do not let the world forget " is as much a creed to the living as it is to the dead. I think that it is true to say that when the suffering and trauma experienced in the aftermath of war is told as a central part of war history, and not just as an extra, separate story, the picture of war will be altered. It is to this end that I dedicate the book.

I would very much like to write about Mr Terao in my book: Millennium of Grief.

Thank you.

Rod Parr

Fumihito Tomaru Tokyo Japan, 6 August,1999

Nice to meet you. I have just read the Terao Memoir.

I was born and bred in Tokyo. I have been aware of A-bomb since I attained the age of discretion. This is because my parents were involved in an antiwar movement (although they did a little), and through their activities I got acquainted with the Marukis, a close family of my relative's. Another reason was I was born in August 9, the same date 19 years later, when Nagasaki was A-bombed. I have been looking for web sites on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. By a curious coincidence, I am reading the Terao Memoir today August 6, Hiroshima Day.

There is no other documents that grasps so tightly my heart than the plain record of an actual victim.
When I walked out of Hiroshima A-bomb Museum, I couldn't find proper words to express my feelings to my friend nearby and I had to hold my tongue. When I visited Nagasaki, I couldn't understand why tear ran down on my face without any reasons. It is hard to express my feelings, but if asked, it could have been a sense of incompetence against unreasonable things.
I can feel sympathy for some of responses in your web site (although I haven't read it through.)

When I was taken to Maruki Museum in my childhood, I first saw "Picture of A-bomb." I remember I felt so terrible and cried in terror. At that time, I reflexively refused to gaze the picture, but later I understood that I "must" look at it.
Since then, I have been trying to make it a rule to keep my eyes directly on the documents on Hiroshima, Nagasaki, and general information on World War 2.

I soon came up to a question in my mind, "Why such a thing (A-bombing) took place?" I visited Independence Hall in Korea, prior to my actual visit to Hiroshima and Nagasaki, in order to understand what Japanese militarism did in mainland Asia. Coincidentally, I got on the same bus with visitors from Hiroshima. It was a surprise for me.

I think the tragedies in Hiroshima and Nagasaki were the parts of result of technology development. As I am an engineer in a manufacturing firm, I would like to hold a sort of ethics in my mind. I think the Internet is a part of technology development as well. It is very useful to hand down or spread information the actual experience of war or exposure to A-bomb. Most young people around me, including my generation, look like to think they donft want all the way to turn their faces to the tragedy in the past.
We must, however, look at it, donft we?

My father also had once fought in the front line during Pacific War. I tried to ask him to speak out his experience, but havenft done it yet until today. The Terao Memoir and responses have encouraged me to begin to talk it to my father. I would like to try again when we two drink together (I am not sure if I can, though.)

Mike Bartmess Los Angeles, U.S.A., 6 August,1999

Thank you for creating such an important Web site. The saga of Hiroshima holds a special meaning for me, which I became very aware of at an early age. And I've always remembered it, every year.

I weep: I was born
on the sixth day of August
nineteen fifty five.

Hiroshima mourns
the cost of innocence lost.
The world remembers.

Mike and Maya

Russ Kress Charleston, U.S.A., 6 August,1999

Mr. Terao,

This is the first time I have ever read a first hand account of the attack. More precisely, a first hand account posted from someone who was on the ground. As an American, who was not born until 1964, I am utterly ashamed of the actions that were taken over Hiroshima and Nagasaki. As you stated, most everyone had been conscripted into the army. I ask myself, "Who could have remained that would make these two cities military targets?"

I cannot begin to imagine what you endured, or what you lost, that day. I would urge you to tell your account every chance you get to anyone who will listen. I have grown up with nuclear weapons as a fact of life. One can become complacent, until one reads an account like this.

A world free of these weapons is more important to me now that I have children of my own. I took the liberty of printing your account so that they may read it.

Unfortunately, I am afraid that until we can convince our Chinese and North Korean friends that it is a waste to build a weapon that dare not be used, we will have to maintain a deterrent to the unthinkable.

I would say to these states that being the only country to ever use a nuclear weapon against living people, is not a part of our history that we are remotely proud of.

Thank you again for your words,

Russ Kress
Charleston, West Virginia
United States

Yolanda Ortega U.S.A., 6 August,1999

I send greetings and appreciation for the beautiful site memorializing the victims of the Hiroshima/Nagasaki atomic bombings.
Mr. Matsumura has done a beautiful job of providing an intimate view of the persnal tragedy of the events.

I am an American born 3 years after the bombings. I first became aware of Hiroshima through reading John Hersey's book "Hiroshima" when I was about 12 years old. It had a very great impact on my for my whole life. I remember two a book of prints or paintings of the aftermath of the bomb. These personal rememberances are so very important to retain and communicate if we are to prevent this happening again.

Best regards to all involved.

Yolanda Ortega

Roxann Daily Oakland,U.S.A., 1 september,1999

I discovered your website with Mr. Terao's memoir as a link from a news item published today, August 6, the 54th anniversary of the dropping of the Atomic Bomb on Hiroshima. I wish to join the others who thank you for the publication of this memoir for the whole world to see; I wish Mr. Terao was still alive so I could thank him myself. He should have felt no shame for his terror of reliving that experience, but I am grateful that he did finally speak his truth for the rest of us to know.

I first heard stories from survivors living in this country (the USA) who gave details of the horror they live with each day searching their bodies each morning upon rising looking for the slightest sign of deterioration which would signal the onset of radiation illness; they are afraid their skin will begin to be eaten away, which of course would ultimately kill them.

They worry about this happening to them every day. It was so painful and terrifying to hear them tell about their fears. I heard these stories from witnesses at court trials for protestestors arrested in civil disobedience against the manufacture and transport of nuclear bombs. The Japanese victims were presented to tell their stories to expose the horror and threat of nuclear weapons. Of course, the judge refused to consider their testimony as relevant. The judge would say that it did not matter WHY the protestor was protesting, but only whether WHAT they did was in violation of the law or not. This is not justice; this is JUST US.

Though it is but a small gesture for such a vast and horrible experience, I also want to send my sincere apologies as a US citizen for the unspeakable devastation and continuing pain and suffering that "my" government and its unbridled military power have waged against your country and its people.

To this day, the US government uses the threat of nuclear proliferation to wage ideological battles against countries that aren't playing by the US's rules, and the people here too often buy this propaganda. But, it is the US that created the nuclear bomb, the only country that has dropped not one but TWO, and has basically built an international policy on continued development of, construction of, and threats to use again "weapons of mass destruction" (their own euphemism)! The citizens of the US have to recognize OUR responsibility for confronting our own government and military on the manufacture and threats to use these weapons.

The news report that linked your site was regarding the sale of earrings at the US National Atomic Museum in New Mexico in the image of the two bombs dropped in Hiroshima and acknowledge (they say) the work of the scientists who developed those bombs to save American lives! As soon as I finish this message, I am going to send an email of protest to the museum, Lockheed Martin who is affiliated with the museum, as well as the US Department of Energy which is also involved with the museum. They have already received protests from your country; I want to add my own voice.

Thank you again for our website. I will direct others from my country to it to read. I will live with the sorrow and pain I feel at this moment from reading it for a very long time.

And in honor of Mr. Terao, I echo his plea NEVER AGAIN!

Roxann Daily
Oakland, California